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Thursday, November 14, 2013

A New Purpose

It's been quite a long time since my last post...has it been almost 2 years for real???  And, well, there are so many reasons why I didn't post, but the basic gist of it is:  LIFE. 

Anyway, when I initially started this blog, I wanted to be an inspiration to other mothers, particularly moms of twins, to get out there and get fit, post-babies.  Having a passion for running marathons, I couldn't wait to get my body back to a place where it was willing (or at least forgiving enough) to take on the difficulty of training for 26.2 grueling miles.  And I had wanted to prove it to the world that it could be done!  I am sure there are many twin mommas out there that have been able to accomplish this goal.  Sadly, despite my persistence and overwhelming desire, the reality right now is that it is not going to happen any time soon.

A pain in my groin area was a constant barrier to my goal along the way over this past 2 years. And by now, that oh-so-private-area has been x-rayed, MRIed, and manipulated chiropractically, but it has not gone away.  However, it HAS gotten much better!  Yay!!  And, it's been better enough that I was able to run 5milers several days a week without tooooooooo much pain.  My last run was only a couple of weeks ago, in fact.  But the most deterring factor in my developing any real running routine of significance is this overwhelming, all-consuming exhaustion and achiness that I now have.

Over this past year, I had started to feel worse and worse with each passing week. So began my journey of doctors poking and prodding me and sticking me with plenty of needles, drawing 20 gallons of blood probably.  Well, okay, it might not have been 20 gallons...but it sure was a heck of a lot!  In between blood tests and waiting for results, I tried increasing my running/exercise to combat this awful dark cloud hanging over my body. As long as I do it in moderation, about 3 times per week, I am alright.  But any more than that and I am about as useful to my family as a wet, discarded towel on the bathroom floor.  Know what I'm saying?

Long story...made, um...longer (sorry)...in the past month, I have finally been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, Raynaud's, and as of last week, I have also been diagnosed with scleroderma, which is an auto-immune disease that I am only JUST learning about.  

I have decided that not only will my running serve a new purpose in my life, so, too, will this blog.  Running will be something that I will try to continue to do...in moderation (and by the way, I HATE that phrase when it comes to running) to keep my body in as best of shape as I can; and this blog will chronicle the ups and downs of my experiences with said running and fibromyalgia, scleroderma, and Raynaud's (not to mention my brood of 3 screaming monkeys that follow me around for the sole purposes of clinging to me and hanging off my limbs). And, yes, I really do still love my children.

Happy trails,
MM

5 comments:

  1. as someone who has known you forever and ever, I know that doing ANYTHING in moderation is not your style! I love that we have running in common, and sad that we have autoimmune diseases in common. Let's attempt this running in moderation thing, shall we? xoxo

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    1. LOL! Yes, you are correct, Kristina! I have a difficult time with moderation! I, too, and glad we have the running in common. And it totally stinks that we have autoimmune in common! It was such a nice surprise to see your comment! Thank you! I look forward to our many future conversations!!

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  2. Sorry to hear all you've been going through. I think your passion for running will be a good thing in all of this. Your blog looks like mine except mine is pink. Great minds think alike. LOL

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    1. Hi Linda,

      Thank you so much! I am hoping you are right about my running! I will have to check your blog out!

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    2. Oh, and thanks for following, too!! :)

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